swirl of anonymity

meh.

i post a lot of shitty prose and poetry in here not because i don't want to share, but because i'm afraid of having the "better" stuff i've written stolen. yes, i'm that full of myself.

i want to do something drastic. like run away, or get another tattoo. i will probably just end up dying and cutting my hair... that sounds like such a good idea right now.

i applied for a summer internship through Montclair Editors and Writers, but no one has contacted me yet. it would be really great if i could get a job with a publishing company because, for one thing, i would enjoy it, and for another, my parents would stop nagging me. their suggestions are always so uninventive too. "why don't you work at starbucks? why don't you apply at whole foods? you know, barnes and noble is hiring." ew... i don't want to work for minimum wage for the most evil corporations of america. the ones that have commodified everything that i love! (good coffee, weird health/ethnic food, and literature/music/movies?)

i'm such a brat.

i have an 8-page paper due tomorrow and i haven't started it yet. haven't even really read any of the books that it is on. i've realized that i haven't had to work so hard this semester of college. despite the fact that the classes i am in are 300-level courses, each one really only requires me to write maybe two papers, and take two exams. i put all the work off till the very last minute, thus putting forth the least possible amount of effort... and i still manage to get an A.

the english major at rutgers is insubstantial in my opinion. there aren't enough course offerings in creative writing, and the major itself is not demanding enough.

i'm gonna try to write my paper now though.

posted by swirl of anonymity @ 4:10 PM